Post by Jana on Feb 3, 2019 15:24:33 GMT
As Joshua kindly pointed out it may happen that I succumb to the chaos within me without a hope of resurfacing. In case it should happen, these are my preferences. I know we didn’t always see eye to eye about things but still it seems you’re the closest thing to friends (or family - literally) I have here. Decide for yourselfs what that means to you.
So, if my mind is really gone:
(and I mean REALLY gone, I don't mean me doing something that doesn't make sense to your backwards sensibilities)
1. I don’t want to be held in a small family friendly room with constant visits from doctors. If I’m not me, I’m dead already. Help my body catch up to that fact. Do I remember correctly that there is a place in which death seems to be permanent even for us?
2. Tell Maddie I am gone. We’re not on speaking terms, but she deserves to know.
3. If my daughter resurfaces, be kind to her. I know, I know. I’m full of surprises. But if I’m not there, there’s no reason for her to suffer anymore. If found, give her my skinning knife.
4. Check on the younger and older me. I have a suspicion they will die with me, but who knows. So many me-things running around in this world.
5. Do not renew Christmas. Let me have this one thing.
Thanks.
So, if my mind is really gone:
(and I mean REALLY gone, I don't mean me doing something that doesn't make sense to your backwards sensibilities)
1. I don’t want to be held in a small family friendly room with constant visits from doctors. If I’m not me, I’m dead already. Help my body catch up to that fact. Do I remember correctly that there is a place in which death seems to be permanent even for us?
2. Tell Maddie I am gone. We’re not on speaking terms, but she deserves to know.
3. If my daughter resurfaces, be kind to her. I know, I know. I’m full of surprises. But if I’m not there, there’s no reason for her to suffer anymore. If found, give her my skinning knife.
4. Check on the younger and older me. I have a suspicion they will die with me, but who knows. So many me-things running around in this world.
5. Do not renew Christmas. Let me have this one thing.
Thanks.